WHO WROTE THIS SHIT?

It's been a bit since I updated. ><; I apologize. It's been a hectic... couple of days. I've been overly exhausted from nothing. It's like waking up from a deep sleep and remaining that way throughout the day. I feel like everything's been a dream and that I've missed 5 days of my life.

I borrowed Saiyuki from Katie, and I haven't even been able to get through the first disc because I just keep blacking out on the couch. x_x;

I think it all links back to the problem that's going on with my head... DX It's fluctuating my emotions, messing with them. Making me angry and upset over the smallest things.

Over the past month and a half I've met one of the nicest people I've ever come across in my entire life. A girl named Ariel, who I mentioned before, who's just... I don't even know. >: She bought me a fucking tablet, and is sending it to me sometime this week. T T; For some reason, I can't bring myself to believe it.

All my life, I've never liked receiving gifts, I mean... of course I like them, and the people who give them but... I basically fail at giving back. As much as I love to do things for other people, to me it's like... it's never enough. I don't feel like I deserve half of what I get in life. :\

Maybe I'm writing an emo-esque journal because of my head being messed up. I don't even know. ><; I've drawn and did a bit of art recently... but... I don't even want to post it.

I'm just so tired and disappointed, there's too much going on right now and it's getting to me. I've been playing a lot of guitar hero with my sister, to keep my mind off of things.

D| And there's a Daddy long leg somewhere in here... ; ~ ;`

Dissidia comes out in a month and a half... I'm so excited for it. T T SO ALLISON YOU NEED TO HURRY AND GIMME MY PSP BACK. B|

u.u Anyway... I'mma go lay down... again.

~Amachu